… but for heaven’s sake not in a one horse open
sleigh! That would be too cold and too shaky for me and my computer. Besides I
can’t stand snow-covered roads and landscapes. There isn't often much snow in Graz, but in the weeks before Christmas I don't like going downtown any better than a sleigh ride. I definitely prefer my home where it’s warm and quiet and
comfortable. Nobody around me rushing to and from in a Christmas or rather
shopping mania. No children shrieking because they see Santa Clause or the
Christkind distributing flyers and coupons on the other side of the street. No
shrill profuse Christmas decorations in shop windows that drive me away from
the place. No smell of hot spiced wine enveloping me and bringing me close to
the point of vomiting
Instead of freezing and existing in a state of constant
alarm, I’m sitting in my chair close by the heating. At arm’s length from me
the old cat is sleeping curled up into a ball. My green tea on the table is
steaming in its cup while my fingers are flying over the keyboard of my
computer. With every letter that I type I dive deeper into the world of the written
word, the realm of thoughts and dreams. Mine as well as those of others. Real
and made up lives are mixing in my mind. Real and invented places are mingling
in my imagination. New events and relations are taking shape on my computer
screen. Word for word. Sentence for sentence. Nothing around me still matters.
Time is of no importance. I’m not a writer in front of a computer anymore. I am
every single word that I'm typing, I am the story that I'm telling. Nothing can stop me.
Then my story is told from beginning to end. The very last impression from an
old film appears before my inner eyes, two words that say everything: The End. I
close the file and run down my computer.
The cat is still lying curled up into a ball,
but its head looks to the other side now. My tea no longer steams. It’s cold
and bitter. My stomach rumbles and I realize that I’m famished. I have a look
at my watch: hours have passed. My fingers are weary, my mind is blank. All
those words that flowed from my head into my finger-tips! I feel exhausted,
empty... past the finishing line of a creative marathon. A faint smile creeps
onto my lips from deep down in my soul. I can feel it glowing, growing. It’s
impossible that it doesn’t show. Oh, what fun it is to write!
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